Now that I'm the mother of 2 little energetic boys I am writing a blog because I have lots of time!!! This seems ridiculous because... it is. I have very little time to myself. I fact lately I barely have time to pee on my own but I keep telling myself, this is normal? Or... Isn't this normal? Don't all mothers of 2, pee with the door open? (Too much info?)
Well, my need to blog is about me having some "me-time" and although I don't always have the ideal timeline to grt to blogging, i steal 5minutes here or there and a few inutes from my sleep so I can share my thought and pictures with you., I often have to wait till I can appropriately "ignore" everyone else to get it done but I constantly say to myself, I have to make the time if I want to make it happen.
So the reality is this blog and website are about giving to myself. Giving myself time to express myself, create and share.
Lately I've been doing lots of thinking ( uh oh) and I've come to the reality that I have so many interests and so much I want to do but right now I am so focused on the boys, my family and our house that the personal stuff that I want to do is just simply put on hold. So the end result is that this blog is about embracing the fact that I can't do some of my more selfish interests so I'm blogging to share with others the interests that are my reality: Connor, Kai and Jeff!
I was also thinking...What did I do when I didn't have two kids? how did I spend my time? I think most mothers ask themselves this after they realize how much their life has changed. There's just not enough time in the day now that I have 2 (okay 3) boys and what did I do before this? The answers to these questions are amusing and funny to me because I realized that I stressed a LOT more before kids. I stressed about what and when I would eat, what and how I would work out or break a sweat for the day. I wondered what social events I should committ too, I stressed about why girlfriend #1 didn't call or if I offended girlfriend #2 etc.
I also got in my way a lot too! Thinking: maybe I'd try something new, but then thinking: there's no time, or maybe it's a good time but I don't want to spend my money that way. Well, now I laugh thinking: do it, spend it, embrace it because those kids are gonna be up in 5 minutes!! Who knew that having kids you'd look back and laugh at yourself for worrying and stressing. It's my favorite question these days: what would you tell your younger 20year old self if you could? I have a list that takes up pages and pages... ahhh perhaps for another post.
So in the end, today I've spent the whole day doing some of the me-things on my list and have thoroughly enjoyed it because Connor has been sleeping for 3 hours! Yeah C-man! I've enjoyed my me-things to do list ( read = call plumber #2, window guy, bank guy and pro painter lady) more than I ever did before having kids. Maybe that's why you have kids, to learn to appreciate all that selfish time you had to yourself before kids? Who knows... but I'm definitley more appreciative and when I have 5 minutes to myself these days, I'm peeing or trying to post a picture of the boys for you to enjoy.
ah oh... better pee, he's awake!
Well, my need to blog is about me having some "me-time" and although I don't always have the ideal timeline to grt to blogging, i steal 5minutes here or there and a few inutes from my sleep so I can share my thought and pictures with you., I often have to wait till I can appropriately "ignore" everyone else to get it done but I constantly say to myself, I have to make the time if I want to make it happen.
So the reality is this blog and website are about giving to myself. Giving myself time to express myself, create and share.
Lately I've been doing lots of thinking ( uh oh) and I've come to the reality that I have so many interests and so much I want to do but right now I am so focused on the boys, my family and our house that the personal stuff that I want to do is just simply put on hold. So the end result is that this blog is about embracing the fact that I can't do some of my more selfish interests so I'm blogging to share with others the interests that are my reality: Connor, Kai and Jeff!
I was also thinking...What did I do when I didn't have two kids? how did I spend my time? I think most mothers ask themselves this after they realize how much their life has changed. There's just not enough time in the day now that I have 2 (okay 3) boys and what did I do before this? The answers to these questions are amusing and funny to me because I realized that I stressed a LOT more before kids. I stressed about what and when I would eat, what and how I would work out or break a sweat for the day. I wondered what social events I should committ too, I stressed about why girlfriend #1 didn't call or if I offended girlfriend #2 etc.
I also got in my way a lot too! Thinking: maybe I'd try something new, but then thinking: there's no time, or maybe it's a good time but I don't want to spend my money that way. Well, now I laugh thinking: do it, spend it, embrace it because those kids are gonna be up in 5 minutes!! Who knew that having kids you'd look back and laugh at yourself for worrying and stressing. It's my favorite question these days: what would you tell your younger 20year old self if you could? I have a list that takes up pages and pages... ahhh perhaps for another post.
So in the end, today I've spent the whole day doing some of the me-things on my list and have thoroughly enjoyed it because Connor has been sleeping for 3 hours! Yeah C-man! I've enjoyed my me-things to do list ( read = call plumber #2, window guy, bank guy and pro painter lady) more than I ever did before having kids. Maybe that's why you have kids, to learn to appreciate all that selfish time you had to yourself before kids? Who knows... but I'm definitley more appreciative and when I have 5 minutes to myself these days, I'm peeing or trying to post a picture of the boys for you to enjoy.
ah oh... better pee, he's awake!